Too freaking much!

I'm not happy at all oh! If i hear one more freaking person i know dies, i'm going to lose it. I'm so freaking pissed, annoyed and sad at the same time. When is this going to end. I heard last week that my Aunty (mom's half sister) died. Ok! Then today, i'm on my own in peace oh, trying to study and my sister calls me from naija telling me that our family friend's 35 yr old daughter has passed away. What kind of nonsense is that? I was on her bridal party in 2001 when she got married. She just had her second child a couple of years ago and now she's gone? Tell me what is right about that picture. I didn't feel like crying b4 but now i do cos i'm just having all these images and memories flooding back in my head.

I called my younger sister a few minutes ago (i'm supposed to be studying right now) only to find out that she and my mom had tried to call our friend that just passed and the younger sister last week cos my sister had had a bad dream about her. She dreamt that she saw the younger sister looking sad, and disheveled. Funny enough i dreamt that my father passed away last week and we were at his funeral which was being held in a stadium. First of all, i thot the stadium venue was weird but it was just a dream right? However, with this our friend that just passed away, it makes sense they would know enough people for them to hold a funeral in a stadium or whatever large venue cos her parents are very well known ministers in the state, and they have more than enough members to fill a stadium. So maybe i was dreaming of her funeral. Who knows.

I'm just tired. I didn't mean to blog today and even if i wanted to blog this was the last thing i would have blogged about. I don't want to cry cos i fear that if i start, i won't know how to stop. Life is not making sense anymore. Stopppppppp! Please.