Wahala don wear shoe

Forgive my absence people, i have been working like a fool. Boy, do i have gist for u guys. Remember that job i asked you guys to pray for me to get....... Well, it was only after i started orientation and had to take a one day training class on self defense and handling aggressive/combative patients that it sunk in that i was working in a MENTAL hospital. I don't know what my brain has been registering all this while. I mean..... i was aware that it was a psychiatric hospital but i don't think i was AWARE.

Today was my first day at the unit (ward) and i woke up at 3am cos i couldn't sleep. I had heard different stories of how people would walk up to u and just sucker punch u or give u a hot slap for no reason. Fear catch me. Coupled with the fact that through out the orientation everyone just assumed i was so young, they all assumed i was between 19-21yrs. How would i evoke any kind of authority with those patients. Today, I even had a patient ask me my age and then proceed to tell me he was older than me cos i was 18yrs old. See wahala. When i told them to come in from their smoke break, some of them didn't even blink. I'm supposed to be in charge of these people oh! The second time i had to say it, i had to inject some authority into the voice abeg, i no fit shout. The director of nursing in the hospital had earlier asked me if i was scared and i said no (partial lie, at that time i had talked myself out of most of my fear). The dude told me i should be scared. He was like, he was scared too on his first day at a psych ward. He just told me to watch my back and be on alert always. Yeah...... that was very helpful at putting me at ease. Just ignore the rapidly beating heart and the regular back and forth glances over my shoulders.

They were going to place me in the hard core schizophrenic unit today, but the girl who was supposed to train me refused cos she had been punched in her neck on Tuesday and she said she wasn't feeling up to it. That's how i escaped it, but everytime i entered that unit, na so my heart dey beat. They had a divalicious gay dude on that unit, and he was quite a character, flipping long hair that he doesn't have.

I have to be at work at 7am, and anyone who knows me knows i am not a morning person. I feel like i'm being severely tortured. I have had to show up for orientation all weekat 8-8.30 am. I don't show up at my regular job until 10am. This is hell, but i suspect i will get used to it soon. Extra money doesn't hurt. Let's just hope i don't end up with a black eye or some loose teeth while earning it. You guys keep praying for me abeg, i don't want to be given a beat down by any patient. I highly doubt that that one day self defense class would do me any good.