I was having a really bad day a couple of days ago when i put up that post. I was at work crying hysterically and i needed an outlet that's y i put that post. I would like to think i have developed much better coping skills but i was just overwhelmed at that point. I might need to go back to seeing a therapist cos i find it's very helpful when i have someone to talk to about what bothering me, without them shutting me down half way and telling me it will be okay or not really listening. I am most definitely going to quit my job at the hospital in May. I only scheduled myself for half the month and i don't think i will be going back on a regular basis until i leave for school.
I was (am) exhausted, overwhelmed, out of balance, very unhappy and i need a break. Those idiots at the Nigerian embassy in Atlanta are out of booklets so i can't renew my passport, so my trip to Nigeria will probably not happen.
It's easy to feel alone and forget the big picture sometimes. Some of you guys surprised me. It was really weird in a good way. Thanks for all the comments, including the comment by tobenna about me becoming schizophrenic. It actually made me laugh. Writefreak, Temite, Bumight, and Jummy, Shukran.
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I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better even though you still have a lot of the same feelings..Having an outlet is always necessary to blow off the worst steam. Having a therapist is always good. Just try to put yourself first and get as much rest as you can when you can, allthough I know its difficult to get enough peace and time for it. Wish you the best! And yes it is easy to forget the big picture.. Blogville often helps to remind me. You will see better days soon!
ReplyDeleteGlad ur no longer feeling like killing yourself, was ma 1st time on ur blog n u scared me shitless lol. Well take things easy n take care.
ReplyDeleteCheers!
p.s-u knw sumtyms its nt neccessary 2 c a therapist u knw....u could be like me n talk 2 urself, better still use ur house phone n call ur cell phone n talk 2 urself lol....call me crazy but it wrks...try it!
Sweerie, I'm so glad you're feeling a lot better.
ReplyDeleteIf you think it will help to see a therapist, by all means do it. I will be praying for you...
And you know where i am if you need to talk!
hey gd to know u are better
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up!!
ReplyDeleteJust keep taking each day as it comes.
ReplyDeleteyou dont have to be sorry....actually, you should be sorry for scaring us shitless! LOL
ReplyDeleteits ok to have a meltdown once in a while (when its not like u're the energizer bunny, lol) so long as u get back up.
did Tobenna actually call u schizophrenic? LMAO! the nerve of him!
Well, we thank God you're okay. I was already online shopping for the most effective schizophrenic medication. You know they have mad side effects.
ReplyDeleteGood to see u back up, hon. If you know that seeing a therapist is what helps u, then by all means do so!
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for u.
Good to know you're feeling better. And starting theraapy does sound like a great idea.
ReplyDeleteAll the best hun.
glad to read you are feeling better after being a little down.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about the passport wahala...
glad to read you are feeling better after being a little down.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about the passport wahala...
Ok, you're so cute, apologizing to us. We're more than happy to be here for you and do use us in conjunction with a therapist! We're cheaper (not sure if we're better though).
ReplyDeleteI'm glad the hospital job may be coming to an end soon.
And I'll *grrrrrrr* on your behalf at the Nigerian Embassy. So annoying.
I am glad to hear you are feeling better. We have our moments from time to time. Like you said, even though we live in a big world, it can still be lonely sometimes. You gotta find a way to deal with that
ReplyDeleteSo glad u feel better. I knew u'd come off it. Cheerio
ReplyDeleteGlad you are feeling a whole lot better. One day at a time.
ReplyDeleteHey, send your passport to the one in DC..sent mine there recently and got it in TWO WEEKS...was quiet shocked and impressed http://www.nigeriaembassyusa.org/immigration.shtml
ReplyDeleteso sorry abt the way you are feeling!!i have been feeling quiet down myself lately!I thank God for God sa..thats all i can say!
when did u plan to go to naija
ReplyDeleteyeah they are out of passport papers even in DC the only option is to go to the embassy in new york for the new passport and then wait until it comes back to you in about 3 weeks
sowwy
Take it easy. One day you'll look back at all this and smile. All the best.
ReplyDeleteMy strong lady! I have pulbished your interview!
ReplyDeletei just read your last post now..i hope u are better now...pele dia...it is well ok...take it easy and keep your head up
ReplyDeleteGlad you are much better now.
ReplyDeleteTk care of you.
Glad you are feeling better!
ReplyDeletewe are glad you are better. just keep your head up. It is well
ReplyDeleteHey! Hope u're feeling better. I'm a good listener so if u want to talk for free- holla! :)
ReplyDeleteNigerian embassy consists of a bunch of the most incompitent people ever!