I walked out!

I walked out of my hospital job yesterday. Did i quit or am i going to be fired? I'm not sure at the point. So here's what happened. The last day i was scheduled to work over there was May 16th. I am PRN, so i have to turn in my availability beginning of every month. In April, i was so overwhelmed, i didn't see myself working through the whole month, so i put mt last available date as the 16th. I was supposed to turn in my 2 weeks notice that day and quit at the end of the month.

I didn't do it. They called me in to work May 29th and i did, no problem. I didn't turn in any availability for June, but they called me on Thursday and said they needed someone to do a 1:1, which means instead of watching 24-28 patients, you only watch one patient. If it's at night and the patient is stable and asleep, that's a pretty good deal. So since she needed someone for the whole weekend, i agreed to go in Friday and Saturday night. She promised me that it was going to be a 1:1 for sure and nobody will change the schedule.

I went in on Friday and everything was fine. When i came home Saturday morning, i only slept for 3 hours cos my nephew and niece were around and it just wasn't possible to sleep. Then i woke up and had to give my dog his medicated bath. I then carried myself to the track and worked out for an hour. I got home around 8pm, by the time i got a chance to lie down it was past 9pm and i had to be at work at 11pm. Suffice to say, i didn't sleep a wink.

On my way to work, i kept obsessing over whether that had changed the schedule. I just told myself that if they removed me from the 1:1, i'm coming back home. My instincts never lie. I get there, don't see anyone doing the 1:1, i'm wondering what's going on with that. I get behind the nurse's station and was told that i might have to work P hall cos they sent someone to the hospital with the person who was supposed to work there.

P hall is the worst hall to work. The most unstable patients are put there, they have the tendency to wake up early, plus there are camera's in each room, so u have to actually stand there and see the patients breathe and check the bathroom every 15mins and it is the largest hall so u have more distance to cover. There was no way, as tired as i was that i was going to do P hall and stay awake all 8 hours. Besides doing the 15min checks in each room, i would have to file the flow sheets, and make new nurses notes and then get vitals signs on all the patients later in the morning. If there was an admission, i would have to search the patient and do the initial assesment. I didn't sign up for that.

So the person who told me i might be doing P hall said i should wait and talk to the charge nurse. I turned around and walked back to my car. Instead of me to drive away like i planned, i wanted to give the charge nurse the courtesy of telling her i was leaving. Stupid! I should have known she won't let me leave when they were short staffed. So after talking to my friend who basically told me to make my own decision and stick to it, i went back in (big mistake) and told the charge nurse i wante to leave, of course she said i couldn't. So i went to speak to the lady i was supposed to take over from and she made me call the scheduler who promised me the 1:1. Long story short, scheduler said she will call me back and she didn't.

So i left abruptly without speaking to the charge Nurse again. I feel bad because i like the charge nurse and would not have left her stranded on a good day but i was TIRED. Now i think they probably have a bad impression of me. I should have just driven away the first time, i would have felt much better.

I don't know if i would be fired cos of this (probably), but like they say, i should have quit while i was ahead.