In active pursuit of happiness

For a long time now, i have been so conscious of death and dying, it's become a slightly morbid obsession. Fine, i know we are all living on borrowed time and no one is going to get out of this mess alive but why can't i just accept that as the status quo and live my life in peace. Why should i be so AWARE of it. It drives a lot of my interactions with people, the thought that today might be my last. No, i don't have any premonition about anything but no one knows when they are going to go.

36 blogged about Aloaye who was killed on March 6. He was my sister's namesake by the way. That's her middle name and her second daughter's middle name also. Small world cos my friend knew the dude and wrote something about him yesterday as his status message. I saw his memorial group on facebook, dude was a cute chubby baby faced guy. He was just 29yrs old. Snatched by the cold hands of death in a sec. Charles, the brother of my classmate was killed for his laptop in lagos one early morning end of feb as he was waiting for the bus to go to work. He was just 25yrs old!!! My sister's friend's mom slept and didn't wake up. She wasn't sick, nothing. She just died in her sleep. Okello, died on his way back from school last dec. I could go on and on. Point is, no one knows when their time is up.

I have decided to say FORK it!! Spoon it too, while u r at it. Everything i do from now on is with one goal and one goal only, i have to be HAPPY. If i'm not smiling, grinning from ear to ear, i say FORK it! All the time i spend letting people make me upset and being depressed, no more. I can't keep feeling sorry for myself like the world is about to end. No more, i'm ready to live my life and have FUN! Well, fun as defined by me.  

People, if u r not for me, u r against me and that means u r dead to me. You have ceased to exist in my world. I love u, i will always love u, but u gast to go. I have shed enough tears cos i'm feeling sorry for myself, boo hoo hoo, i'm not in school right now. Guess what, i get to go back to the madness in August. So why am i upset again? That's what i thot. I just like feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in self pity. Stop wasting your life! Beeeeee Happy, u fool. :-)) I still love u, boo boo.

Yeah you too reading this. I love u (a little, just a little). I no know u na, so i can't love u a lot.