Some retail therapy was definitely in order.
I feel better after my shopping stint, plus i got a friend to shave his beard in exchange for me being happy. Can you imagine the silliness? He really shaved. I was just grinning from ear to ear when i saw him on skype today. Silly goose.
Sorry for all my gloomy and sad posts. This year has been something else, but i'm getting back to myself. I didn't get out of bed until 12pm today. I spent the whole morning in bed listening to T.D. Jakes, Let it go. I must have listened to it 30 times. It was like a balm soothing my aching heart. I will share some of the things i took from it. Things that have helped me make sense of a senseless situation.
"Nothing just happens"
"When people can walk away from you, let them walk, because your destiny is not tied to the one who left"
"Know when someone's part in your story is over"
"You have to know when it's dead, so you don't keep trying to raise the dead"
"If you tried to fix it and make it work and it wouldn't work, it wasn't an accident"
"Stop begging people to stay. Let them go"
T.D. Jakes said "I have the gift of goodbye, it's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful because whatever God means for me to have, he'll give it to me. If it takes too much sweat, I don't need it"
That's deep. I need the gift of goodbye. I definitely don't have it. It all comes with having faith and trusting that God will take care of you regardless. That is freaking deep!!!!
I made a decision that is hard to deal with, but i'm sure it was the right decision. It's not what i would have wanted but I can't settle for less than i deserve. Even though things are not officially ended at this point (a whole lot of back and forth, on my part), It ended in my head yesterday after a very long and nonsense conversation. I can deceive the world, but i can never deceive myself. As hard as it is, i have to do what's best for me and my future. I know that there's true love out there for me and i will be blessed enough to find it. I'm willing to wait and not settle for less. It's hard! but i have dragged this on for too long and i'm ready to let go so i can find peace and be happy once again. Life's too short.
2.14 - 5.45 is where i liked
yay!! i'm happy to say i'm first on this post. glad you're feeling better, and you got that right life IS too short to let "things" get in the way of your happiness
ReplyDeleteAtta girl! Keep that spirit going. Really life is filled with its ups and downs.
ReplyDeleteSo beneath the seeming despair, You find your strength.I am glad you're learning to live despite the set backs.Still pray for you to be happy.Hugs!
ReplyDeletethis is the spirit!
ReplyDeleteaww a hello kitty watch, i want
ReplyDeleteam glad ur feeling better love
shake it off
and lay it at Jesus's feet
itd get better
It is well with you babes...keep your head uphigh.
ReplyDeleteThe Lord be with you and also with you jare.
ReplyDeleteThe gift of Good bye.
ReplyDeleteThat's one fantastic gift to have.
Fret not......you'll bee fine in due time.
That's the miracle of some good Word. I love that 'gift of goodbye' bit. It's so difficult, yet so necessary. God will give us strength, and grace for the times when we think we've done wrong. It is well.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you sounding upbeat. If it's meant to be, it will. If you have to force, check again...
You do love you your hello Kitty's, don't you? :) I'm glad you're feeling better. Take care OK?
ReplyDelete" As hard as it is, i have to do what's best for me and my future. I know that there's true love out there for me and i will be blessed enough to find it. I'm willing to wait and not settle for less. It's hard! but i have dragged this on for too long and i'm ready to let go so i can find peace and be happy once again. Life's too short. "
ReplyDeleteThat last paragraph is the greatest truth.
You will be fine.
Take care girl.
It is well my sista, am glad you had let it GO! TIME HEALS...XOXO.
ReplyDelete