Cowards..........

...........die many times before their deaths while fools rush to theirs.
Say it isn't so.........but it is.

One more to go, then it's lather, rinse and repeat.
Day and night no longer exists, i count hours/ number of lectures. 20 phys lectures, 200+ pages in 12 hours. For reals?  Do i really have to know everything, like know everything, or do i just sorta have to kinda have an idea? What about the pictures and graphs....Is lab stuff that important? Try yourself......... Failure is easy. Takes no effort, at all.

11pm:
Normal person: "Good night! I'm going to bed"
Me: It's 11 pm, Chineke, lecture 7 out of 20. Bone tired, exhausted. Brain has rebelled on me. Been on this shit since 7am. Sets alarm on phone, another on book case, and the last evil alarm guaranteed to wake up the dead. For extra guarantee....calls friend "Dude, wake me up at 1am.....i need to take a nap"

Yeah, i nap at night while others are going to sleep. I can also nap at 7am (like i'm about to) while others are just waking up. Like i said, night and day? What's that?

Can i just die? No?
How about i kill someone? Can't do that either?
Suicidal and homicidal ideation.....ha ha ha! Madness has finally set in.
No worries....those are fleeting thoughts with no plan borne out of extreme exhaustion and the constant state of being overwhelmed.

Try to cry, maybe you will feel better? No tears. All dried up.
Force up some dry hysterical sobs/lamentations.
Squeeze your notes, then calmly "unsqueeze" and straighten them out.
Pull yourself together!!!! Now is not the time.

After an exam
Bags under my eyes, brain fried, body exhausted, can't keep my eyes open. I need to rest so i can study for the next exam. Oya o, go and sleep.
I hr later:
I can't believe i'm still awake with racing thoughts having day-wideawakemares about the exam i just took. Why is neuro plaguing my thoughts and why do i now in this half asleep state know the answer to that stupid question that i did not know during the exam?
My brain freaking hurts. It feels like it's been soaked in peppermint oil or something and no i don't have a headache. This is something worse.
Add my day time insomnia to that = Hell fire.
Hello, Lucifer.

IF you know any med students out there who thinks this is a cakewalk, tell them i said more grease to their elbows.
Oh....they also don't go to my school.

Med school is awesome. NOT!

P.S. Yeah....about my title....lol. It's not supposed to make sense to you, but trust me when i say it makes perfect sense and has everything to do with this post.

P.P.S. My heart is heavy. What is going on in Nigeria? What is going on in the world? All those corpers killed for nothing. Slaughtered, butchered and burnt like they don't have mothers and fathers and siblings who love them. I am so sick and disillusioned by Nigeria and Nigerian politics and politicians. How does killing innocent people solve anything? I truly have a problem with these northerners who have zero value for human lives. I can't imagine how the parents of these kids must feel. Some will not even see bodies to bury. May God help us all. I will not believe in change until i see it. I don't think Goodluck is the messiah we have been waiting for. Well, if he is, that remains to be seen.

Why wasn't something done to prevent what happened from happening? Are they going to say they didn't see it coming? It's sickening. At the risk of not being politically correct, i think NYSC should be scrapped or at least people shouldn't be forced to serve in the North if they are not from there, or any other unsafe areas that they are not from. The North should go form their own country and rule and kill themselves there. Enough is enough.