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I have this recurring dream where i am writing an exam and don't know anything or i'm not prepared for the exam. It's funny because i've had this dream at least 10 times, different settings, different times in my life but the same dream. I dreamt about it again yesterday. I think it's because my greatest fear is (was) failing. The crazy thing is that i have actually lived this dream. My first Anatomy exam in med school 2009, i went in there not knowing anything because i was too worried about passing Genetics to study for it. The experience wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be but i rather go into an exam prepared for it.

I'm in snail mode right now. What happens to a snail when you touch it? It withdraws. So much going on right now, mostly mental. I want to shut down everything and shut out everyone. So just in case you come on here and see "This blog is open to invited readers only", just know that there are no invited readers and it would most likely be temporary. I get the urge to stop blogging and delete my blog at least once a year and i guess this is that time.