Lamentation 007

• I hate med school
• I hate my life............right now. 
• This is not humanly possible. I have been on this chair since 5am, no freaking break. I haven't even taken a shower or properly eaten. I feel like i'm starving but I have completely lost my appetite. I'm so scared because the demon that is my stomach doesn't play that. I need to feed it regularly so it can give me peace. Still, i have to get all this done. 
• I really, really, really, couldn't care less about these SOAP notes and how to do them, but seeing how it cares a lot about me, i have to do them. One down, one to go. 
• I am so going to bullshit my way through that ILP (individualized learning plan). If only my pathway advisor didn't have to approve it. 
• Was i supposed to stop being human and become a freaking machine? 
• I am tired!
• I HATE MED SCHOOL.  I do, i really do. 
• But i so want to be a doctor. I do, i really do. 
• I really wanted to write some of this on twitter, but it's a "happy" place. I never see anyone lamenting about their lives over them (although, i'm hardly ever on there). So i guess i will just confine my lamentations to this space. 
• I'm fine. 
• I will be fine. 
• I'm okay.