Quick Thot

I'm on call for an Autopsy viewing, either tomorrow, Friday or next week Monday. They don't give you a specific date because the person hasn't died yet and as they say, you don't schedule death. I've known about the Autopsy viewing since the beginning of the semester but my group just became officially on call on Monday. The enormity of what i'm about to be a part of didn't really sink in until yesterday. Somewhere in this city, someone's days are numbered. Tick, tock, tick, tock. They most likely don't even know it. It could be anybody. It sank in yesterday while i was studying, and it sobered me up quickly.

What are you doing with your life?
Are you living, existing, or enjoying your life?

The craziness of it all, is that we are all going to die someday, some of us sooner than others.
I'm still trying to find that balance.

There's something i call the arrogance of the living. This refers to when we put important things off because we think we have time. A lady who one of my sister's was very close to died suddenly, unexpectedly in her sleep last March. I saw her a couple weeks before she passed, my sister saw her a couple of days before she passed. She was just 50 years old. 2 of her 4 kids weren't speaking to her before she died. I guess they figured they had time to fix it. I don't have to tell you who took her death the hardest.

Point is, let's slow down, stop and think and make the best we can out of what life has given us. It's never going to be perfect because we are not perfect and we don't live in a ideal world but we can make a conscious effort to try.