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I can't believe this! I just got through that hellish week and now i'm back at it again. It is so hard for me not to be depressed. I really couldn't care less about what i am studying but i have to learn it and learn it well because i understand the importance of my board score. I usually try not to stop and think and just get through stuff, but seeing how i'm still human, it creeps up on me. I just realized all the people i promised to call after finals that i never called and i'm looking at my schedule and there's no time to call them.

The worst thing is i can't even say things will get better after this exam cos as soon as i'm done, bam! Hello, rotations. What i was thinking when i ranked surgery high, i'm not sure. My first choice was peds, and my next 3 were tracks which started with surgery. I got my second choice.I already regret not ranking tracks with vacation months first. I really wasn't thinking straight during this semester. To say i am dreading rotations, would be an understatement. To be honest, i refuse to think about it. After boards, i can worry about that. I really just want to go home for 2 days but i scheduled my exam so late (i'm not trying to rush taking the exam), that's not an option at this point. I love my life, mehn.

The people who said this med school journey doesn't get better, never lied. You should hear residents complain. One even told me, i picked this life, so i should deal with it cos it doesn't get any better. How's that for encouragement.

Sigh...let me get back to shoving all these information down my brain. Maybe i will get some to stick.

P.S Why am i just seeing that Mark Zuckerman got married to a Doctor? Hmmmm...Most of the earlier reports didn't say that.

*I need to upgrade my point and shoot camera, so i need suggestions. I don't want any overly complicated or expensive camera o. We are working on a student's budget here. Seriously, i want to explore my interest in photography.