100 Random Questions

1. How old will you be in five years?
      Older than i would like to be.I don't even want to think about that.
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
       Myself really, but does chatting with my sister and her cute restless daughter on skype count?
3. How tall are you?
       5'5
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
      Figuring my life out
5. What’s the last movie you saw?
     The break up.I just bought it from Walmart on Sunday
6. Who was the last person you called?
    Afx :)
7. Who was the last person to call you?
      Friend in scotland
8. What was the last text message you received?
     My sister in FL
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
    My sister in FL.... lol
10. Do you prefer to call or text?
      Call..... i hate texting just like i hate chatting, but i do it anyway.
11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
      Watching TV
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
      Separated? I no know again o
13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
       Jan 3rd,2010
14. What color are your eyes?
       Brown
15. What time did you wake up today?
       7.38am
16. What are you wearing right now?
      Black sweats and a black T-shirt
17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
      Hmmmm....... none
18. Where is your favorite place to be?
      Where the people i love are. I enjoy my own company from time to time. So my room reading a novel.
19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
      Class or anywhere where i have to listen to someone talk for more than 5 mins.
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
      NIGERIA
21. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?
     Somewhere in the United States or Canada practicing medicine
22. Do you tan or burn?
      I'm black!!!
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
.     Willi willi ....... lol
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
      An episode on the bad girls club, where someone attacked another chic, pulled her by the hair and threw her across the floor. I'm sorry, it was just funny to see.
25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
      One
26. How big is your bed?
      Full size
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
      Laptop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
      Clothes and i have to have a cover even if it's hot.
29. What color are your sheets?
      Black 400 thread count sheets. I aim for a 1000 thread count when i have the dough.
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
      There's one pillow on my bed, but i don't sleep with it.
31. What is your favorite season?
       Spring
32. What do you like about fall?
       The changing colors and the reduced heat from summer
33. What do you like about winter?
       Nothing really
34. What do you like about the summer?
       Summers in Atlanta are kinda of uncomfortable
35. What do you like about spring?
       It's the prettiest time of the year and it's starting to warm up from winter.
36. How many states provinces have you lived in?
       Three
37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
       Four
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
       Socks
39. Are you a social person?
      Not really, more like no.
40. What was the last thing you ate?
      Cereal
41. What is your favorite restaurant?
       I think Chilli's cos i like most of the things on their menu
42. What is your favorite ice cream?
       Haagen daz dulce de leche
43. What is your favorite dessert?
      Cheese cake
44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
      Hmmmm.... I don't eat soup regularly but from way back i remember Ogbono used to be my favorite.
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB and J sandwich?
      Strawberry
46. Do you like Chinese food?
      Love General Tso chicken. That's what i usually get. I haven't been very adventurous with chinese food.
47. Do you like coffee?
      I love the smell of coffee but don't drink it
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
      About two 32oz bottles.
49. What do you drink in the morning?
       If i'm drinking anything it would be very vanilla silk soy milk or lipton black tea with honey.
50. What non-banking related card in your wallet is the most valuable to you?
      I don't carry my student ID in my wallet cos we have to wear it, so i guess nothing.
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
   I had a twin bed at home and a full size bed now, there really isn't that much space to have a preferred side.
52. Do you know how to play poker?
     I only know how to play Whot or go fish
53. Do you like to cuddle?
      Most definitely
54. Have you ever been to Canada?
      Not yet.
55. Do you have an addictive personality?
      Is listening to something i like 100 x called having an addictive personality?
56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
     I hardly ever eat out
57. What do you miss about highschool, if anything?
       My friends in school, outside of school and the lack of responsibility besides being a teenager.
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
       A couple of people. Funny, i don't anyone on my FB friendslist with the same birthday as me.
59. Do you want kids?
      Most definitely
60. Do you speak any other languages?
      Pidgin English
61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
      Nope
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
      Yes, twice but i was in front with the driver. Took a patient from the mental hospital to the ER.
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
     Never been in any body of water. Hmmmm..... i should change that soon.
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
      Aisle seat. I would feel trapped in a window seat.
65. Do you know how to drive stick?
    I first started learning how to drive in Naija with a stick, but never really finished so i don't know how now.
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
      Novels
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
     I have to have earrings on. I don't think i've ever gone out without earrings but i take them off to sleep.
68. What is your favorite TV show?
      I still love Will and Grace. Monk is cool too.
69. Can you roll your tongue?
      Yep!
70. Who is the funniest person you know?
       My childhood BFF
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
    Not usually unless i am very stressed then i got Snoopy
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
       Some bullshit ringtone that i hate.
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
      Nope.
74. What red object is closest to you right now?
       Nothing
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
      Yes, usually.
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
     Closed and locked. One of my biggest fears is to wake up and find a stranger beside my bed.
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
       I think my chances of surviving a swarm of bee attack is higher than surviving a bear attack
78. Do you flirt a lot?
      Not a lot.
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
      Ketchup
80. What is your favorite food?
     I love meat, don't know if i have a favorite food.
81. Can you change the oil on a car?
     If u give me directions, i'm sure i could.
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
    Surprisingly no, even though my nickname is speedy gonzales.
83. Have you ever run out of gas?
      No
84. What is your usual bedtime?
Don't have one. I stopped sleeping like a normal person when i started med sch. My body is out of wack now.
85. What was the last book you read?
      A historical romance novel: Love u forver.
86. Do you read the newspaper?
     No
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
      Cosmopolitan although i barely read it these days.
89. Do you watch soap operas?
      Hell to the no.
90. Do you dance in the car?
      Sometimes
91. What radio station did you last listen to?
       97.7 and 95.5 the beat. Haven't found a radio station i liked since i moved here.
92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
      Don;t have any picture frames in my apartment
93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
    Salaries of the different specialties in Medicine. Might as well start getting aware of those things.
94. What is your favorite candle scent?
      I LOVE candles, anything that smells nice is good with me. I have one, but don't know what it's called.
95. What is your favorite board game?
      Scrabble
96. How do you groom your nails?
     I bite them off. Seriously, they are the first thing to go when i'm stressed which is regularly.
97. When was the last time you attended church?
    Last Sunday.... yay!!!
98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
      Mschewww....... none.
99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
  I've never. Would not mind going though.
100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
     No one.

True story

Friend to Sting: When one door closes another one opens, but sometimes we spend so much time looking at the closed door, we fail to see the newly opened one. True story!!!

I really, really hate my upstairs neighbors. I really do.

Uhm

• How can a wedding with 200 hundred guests be considered private? Seeing that just made me laugh. My sister's wedding had about 50-60 people and almost everyone there was closely related to her somehow. That's what i would consider a private wedding.
• What's up with traditional wedding's having cakes? I have been side eyeing that trend for a while now. I went from being totally against it to being on the fence when i saw one that was different from the norm of box and kola nuts or whatever variation of it they usually have. 

I got this from facebook (without permission), but i think it's different from anything i've seen so far. So right now having a traditional wedding cake has turned from a No-No to a Maybe.

• I went searching for more traditional wedding cakes and i found this site. Not bad. 
• What am i going to do about all these guys that want to date me. I drive them away and more keep coming out of the woodwork.  How do u knw who the right one is?
• I want an arranged marriage at this point. Arranged marriage ordained by God. God will just speak to me and say, this is the man for u. Oya, go and claim him. I don't want all this trial and error relationships anymore. 
• I've been watching way too much TV for my own good. Watched the last two seasons of Bad Girl's Club. Been watching a lot of Platinum Weddings and Little Miss Perfect. 
• How come majority of the pageant moms are fat?!!! Like seriously, a lot of them are obese. What's the correlation?
  
• On one episode of the Bad girls' Club, someone got in trouble for writing about her friend on her blog and that ultimately led to her leaving the house cos of all the wahala it caused. I've never felt comfortable writing about people on my blog and if i do, i usually take it down after a while. It's hard to explain something that's written especially when you were venting and wrote negative stuff that you probably won't remember a couple of days after. I try to stay away from that esp if i'm still friends with that person. If we are no longer friends, then i might not care so much. 
• I've tried to stop blogging many times, but i don't think i can stop abruptly. I'm learning to filter stuff that i put on here, cos u never know who's reading your blog. I don't kid myself that i am anonymous at all. I broke out my paper journal yesterday. I was having some weird feelings/thots that needed to be put on paper. I don't think pple who don't like to write understand how therapeutic it can be. When the Bad Girl who wrote the blog was explaining why she wrote it, i totally got where she was coming from cos that's how i feel abt writing.
• I think pple can be funny sha!
• Regardless, i still miss having friends. Anytime i say that, my M2 friend here always says,  but what about me? She's so sweet.
  

Picturize me

The best fruit cake i have ever had! As you can see it's from Publix.

Some concoction stew i made last summer with yellow pepper, mushroom and tomatoes. I love grilled salmon.

Dessert by niece. Chin chin, vanilla ice cream, white chocolate chips and whipped cream.

Best fries ever courtesy of the U joint somewhere close to Avondale Estates in Decatur, GA. Fries, bacon, green pepper, spring onions and mozarella cheese.

Frozen raw eggs.

Another concoction of mine. Diced plantain in chicken stock plus some other stuff. Vegetables preferably.

This is what happens when u put soda in the freezer and forget about it. Scary explosive sound might occur.

I won !!!!!

I really did! Thanks, Solomonsydelle.

Random thots

• There has to be more to life than this.
• Some people are not made for a life of leisure and i am one of them
• Next time i renew my license, i'm going to sign up to become an organ donor. They can take everything. Take it, all of it.
  
• I think i'll most likely opt for cremation. No rotting and being eaten by maggots for this chic
  
• I'm currently looking to become a bone marrow donor. There are not enough African/ Black people on the bone marrow registry. Who knows i might save a life.
  
• I'm definitely going to look into volunteering next week.
• Went to church two weeks in a row. That has not happened since 2003. I actually went to church once last year but was too traumatized to talk abt the experience. Walked out in the middle of the service and never went back. 
• This the first time i am attending a church with a non Nigerian pastor. Greatest plus for the church is that the service lasts 2 hrs and it's not a catholic church. It's non denominational. You know how u can be in church for like 5 hrs in naija. My church in Nigeria was from 9am -2pm. Sometimes 4pm person go still dey church. I kid u not.
  
• Greatest drawback, they don't have specific time set aside for kabashing (praying). I found that weird. This sunday i just jejely prayed during worship. I can't go to church and not pray. 
• Relationship 101: Never talk about past relationships or even hint at comparisons. You r looking for trouble if u do that and u might not like it when u find it. 
• My BMI and waist size don't match. According to my BMI i am overweight. Anything over 150lbs is overweight for me. My waist size however is less than 35, so it makes no sense. Explanation? I have more muscle than fat, so i weigh more. I didn't say it. 
• I remember the days when my waist was 26inches very fondly, and when i weighed 138lbs and decided to take hydroxycut to lose weight cos i was too fat. 
  
• Can i be 138lbs again?
• I lost my appetite since Jan 5th 2010. Not missing it too much.
• Samson has been gone for over a year now. Death is so weird. So i will never talk to him again?
  

In case of fire.......

So this morning at almost 4am, i was awoken by a car alarm that just kept going on and on. I needed to pee anyway, so i went to handle that business. As i came back i noticed a bright light shining from outside my window and heard some noise. I peeked out my blinds and saw there was a car burning in the next driveway. I was like i'm tired jo, the fire dept will soon come, i'm going back to sleep. In less that two mins after i lay down, i heard this explosion that was so loud, it felt like my windows were about to shatter. I was expecting glass on my body as loud as that explosion was. You need to c the speed i used to jump off my bed.

I ran, put on a bra, grabbed a sweater and stood by the door. Sure enough there was another explosion. I just stood by my door ready to dash out at the first sign of fire. Did i remember to put on shoes? Yes and No. Passport, green card everything that was within easy reach, i was just too confused to even think of going to grab them. I mean i thot abt them, but for some reason, i just couldn't move. Luckily the fire dept came and put of the fire before it got out of hand. But the incident just make me realize that i am so not ready for that kind of emergency. I was ready to dash out in the cold without shoes and a flimsy sweater, meanwhile i was standing next to my coat closet that had all my warm jackets, and my brain didn't tell me to grab one.

I need to get one of those fire boxes so i can have all my important documents in one place and i can easily grab that in case of an emergency. Other than that, i would need my brain to function properly in an emergency and i'll be fine. What happened yesterday just won't cut it.

I keep spelling realize, REALISE every single time. After over 7 yrs of being here, i still can't switch the spelling of that word to the American way of spelling it in my brain. I also noticed that whenever i'm stressed, i revert back to the British way of writing dates, day before month. Like i get so confused abt which is "right". It happened as recently as last month. I remember being penalized for spelling words the British way when i first got here, it was easy to make the switch but i guess u can't just erase everything from ur memory and start afresh.

Something to brighten ur day

Smile Quotes

Stand

Lyrics | Shawn Stockman - Stand lyrics

The song has been a balm to my soul. I hope it blesses someone else. 

Lessons 101

I believe that life is a learning process and we need to learn from our experiences. I like to share anything that i have learned in the hopes that someone out there might find it useful. One thing that i have lived through and know for sure is that fear is an evil spirit and if u let it, it will take complete control over you. Besides dealing with my gastritis which was out of control when i first started school, i had to deal with one of my deans after i had pretty much struggled through medical genetics and failed the first anatomy exams. The one thing that meeting with my dean left me with was fear. I forgot who i was and what i was capable of and let the fear of failing take over my existence. You really don't retain much or can even fully concentrate when u are studying in fear. All i could hear in my head were the words of the dean.

I was in school all day and only went home to sleep, there were some days i even slept in school. I studied my butt off, but i was studying in fear. I lost my self confidence and forgot who i was. I made med school this huge obstacle in my eyes and it was a constant struggle. Sure enough, my first block grades were abysmal. I failed Devo and Biochem woefully. All that studying for nothing. The thing i was most afraid of had happened, and the dreaded second meeting with my dean was going to happen, whether i liked it or not. I went to that meeting and she straight up told me she doesn't think i will pass this semester. I'm not going to lie, she got me at my core.

Funny how since i started Med school, Joel Osteen's teachings have always come through for me. I get his daily messages and subscribe to his podcast. I heard this message he had "activating faith instead of fear" and something just clicked. I said to myself "na book dey do me like this?" Book? School is my thing. I have always been a "good student". Never, ever struggled in school, so why now of all times did i find myself at the bottom of my class? In this med school that i have been dreaming of attending since i was 6 yrs old!!!! I let that fear go and told myself as long as it was something that was written in a book and i was expected to learn, i was more than equal to the task.

I went from a 52 to an 88 in biochem, 66 to 98 in anatomy (got one question wrong in both lab and lecture), and a 64 to an 87 in devo. Fuck what u heard!!! It wasn't enough to dig me out of the hole i was already in, but i am freaking proud of myself. I'm a fighter and sometimes u have to fight for what u want. I'm still in the game and one day, i will graduate with that M.D degree and be the best freaking doctor i can possibly be. Might even be a much better doctor than i would have ever hoped to be cos of this experience.

Bottom line is never let fear take over your life and make you doubt your abilities. Know yourself!!!! Never let anyone tell u what u can or cannot do. Be confident enough in your abilities to be able to look past what is right in front of you and see what is ahead.

You live and you learn.

Ok

So 2010 decided to start by bitch slapping me. Had to go on a self-imposed exile to lick my wounds.
I started feeling like a human being again a couple of days ago. I realize whether i like it or not or want it or not, life will go on. Even if i die tomorrow, life will still go on. I guess it's a good thing i've never sat down to plan my life around a time line for doing things. You know how when u graduate high school, u say i'll be done with school and married by 24 and all that? If i had done that, i would be sorely disappointed. Cos the sequence of my life has been anything but orderly.


Trying to see how much lemonade i can make out of these lemons.

Life happens

The only coherent thot that has popped into my head since Tuesday is "When life gives u lemons, u make lemonade". Very cliche, but that's about all the brain power i have right now.

What kind of lemonade to make? Pink?

(ALL) My greatest fear(s) rolled into one has happened. I don't even think i ever imagined this, cos this is so way out there for me. Anyway, even if i died tomorrow, life will still go on, just as it is going on right now.

When all this is done, i will have a story to tell and it will be a very interesting story.

"Healthy" eating

Corn, kidney beans, green peas and chicken. Quick and easy. Instead of dressing, i added a little bit of the chicken stock. Med school turned me into an innovative chef, although my friend came up with this recipe.

Sch stuff

I am having SERIOUS problems in school. I thought they were over, but apparently they are not. I feel like i'm in a nightmare that i can't wake up from. I would rather not go into details, but i have to meet with a committee sometime this month to decide my fate. It's bad, really bad. I need prayers, positive thoughts anything. I have worked too hard.

I am trusting God. He's in control



*I did not do anything unethical or illegal or anything like that. This solely has to do with my grades*

Wooooooooowwwwwwwwwww

This is/should be the worst day of my life. It literally is, but i just don't feel it yet. Suffering from what i like to call delayed reaction. I'm numb. My brain is frozen. I'm speechless. Pinch me. I have to be dreaming. This can't be for real.

I am so worried about myself.

Happy New yr Blogsville

I wish u guys a blessed, successful year. I pray that God keeps us, and watches over us. I am glad u guys r a part of my life, even my silent readers. I love u guys.