For now..............................

I suddenly lost all interest to blog about my life/personal stuff. There are reasons for that but they are not really important in the grand scheme of things. I'm not saying that i won't blog again on this blog, because i most certainly will, but i can say for sure it won't be the way it was. I just don't know when that would be.

Special thanks to all my blog followers and especially the people who take the time to leave a comment. It means a lot to me. While i'm trying to sort things out or just letting life happen (with regards to this blog), i will continue to update my blog list and i will be over at Blog(s)Ville Gist.

P.S. I switched from Sting to Nigerian Scorpio, just in case i leave comments on ur blogs. It's just me!

Happy Birthday to ME!

I had an early "sweet sixteen" on wednesday :)

I am thankful for the gift of life.
In case you are wondering, yes, that's cheesecake :)

Still here!

Saturday

I feel accomplished and i haven't even gotten up from the couch where i slept yet. I went from 81 blogs on my blog list to 160 in about an hour. I'm trying to hit 200 before the day is over. But i have to abandon that project for now cos my stomach does not like being empty especially since i haven't taken my medication.

Can someone please help me figure out why i have refused to sleep on my bed? The couch is not that comfortable. I'm not sure what is going on with me. I'm already mentally gearing up for Monday. I can't believe (well i can) that we only have 3 weeks before the next block of exams. No time to even relax and take it easy. The marathon continues. The good thing is Dec 17 is getting closer, faster. I want to go home and go be with my people. I can't believe just last year, i was threatening to leave and never come back. Life is funny.

I'm going to start paper journaling again. I think it will help me sort my thoughts out better. I can't write a lot of things on this blog anymore and i miss it. I feel like i need to get myself back and writing has always helped me figure things out, cope and put things in perspective. I actually stopped paper journaling when i started blogging. I didn't stop completely, but it's definitely not on the same level it used to be. It's fun to read back and remember things you had totally forgotten about. At some point, i plan to turn this blog into a book, just so i can have it on paper. I currently have 3 journals that have never been written in. I had to stop myself from buying more cos it was getting ridiculous. I have a total of 10 journals and i want more.

Black Marriage Negotiations

Very funny! I need to start re-thinking things. Some things....lol

Blog list

Hello people,

My exams are half way over. I have Biochem on Friday and i'll be done. I have decided to dedicate an evening to updating my blog list that was lost when i switched urls. Massive update. So if u hv a blog and u r not on my blog list, leave a comment, hi, hello, whatever and i can get to ur blog. Pls, pls, pls....make my life easy.

I'm actually happy today. I haven't felt like this is a hot minute so i'm enjoying it. Working hard to make sure it lasts. Off to go bake some Salmon and study Biochem. I can't wait for Friday. I still can't believe i survived 2 blocks without the aid of caffeine or any stimulant. God is good. Still mastering the act of power naps. My 1hr nap turned into 4 yesterday. It went from a nap to full blown sleep where i didn't even hear my two alarms go off. Whatchu gon do? I just got up at 1.46a instead of the 11p i was supposed to get up and continued studying. 

Thank God those Chilean miners where rescued safely. I have been praying for them. Now what do u think would have happened if it was in Naija?

Mary J. Blige - Each Tear ft. Jay Sean

Taking a break

Slept at 3a, woke up at 7a. 4 hrs. Yay! That's all i need to function well. On pg 173 of 213 (minus a few pages cos i skipped Enzyme Kinetics. It looked depressing). I officially hv 4 more chapters to go in Biochem. 4 out of 17, not bad.

Main reason i came here was to share this. My friend just sent it to me on facebook. I don't know where she got it from. This is for the ladies. Enjoy.

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question... "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking. "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, " I am not referring to money. I need something more." I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, " I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man. " I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman , but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive.. .he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself . When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You're asking a lot." She replied, " I'm worth a lot."

Today

• I had a mini-mental meltdown today. 
• Still on page 12 of 213 in Biochem 4 hrs later. 
• Thankfully, it's my third go over.
•  I have friends who love me and they talked me through it. 
• My friend's mom made me okra soup and a pasta dish, specially without pepper :)
• My eyes hurt from 6 hrs of crying
• I'm fine now.
• Back to Biochem
• I have an 11pm date at the cadaver lab.

I am........

Hola

I feel so much better than i have felt (emotionally) in the last month. I'm headed towards baseline and i am so happy and ready for that. I had the most mentally stimulating conversation with someone yesterday. It just made me realize how much i enjoy intellectual people. I'm in like!

I have block 2 exams the whole of next week. I am so tired, all my joints are aching. I have been getting as much rest as possible. This is a never ending rat race. After next week, we have exactly 3 weeks before block 3 exams. Bliss! All the exams are worth approximately the same, so it's not like quizzes and tests which don't count as much. I love my life.

So how have u guys been enjoying October? The month a superstar (MOI) was born! October 29th, yay ah!!! I'm still trying to decide if i want a sweet 16 birthday or not. Last year was my re-21st birthday. I figured i should have a sweet 16 this year. I am of the school of thought that age is just a number so i get to pick and chose what age i want to be :D unless i am filling out a legal document, then i have to break out my "government" age. lol. I can get away with it too, cos i look wayyyyyyy younger than i am. Don't blame me, blame my genes.

Wish me luck, guys. I shall "see" you after October 15th (or earlier). Stay blessed people.

I still don't understand you

I don't understand you. What is so hard in respecting someone's wishes? This same thing that destroyed our friendship, yet you are still doing it. Not that it's a big deal in the grand scheme of things. I don't crave or need anonymity like i used to. The time when i needed my space, you didn't give it to me so i'm not surprised. I'm aware i blog and chose to put a part of myself out there for anyone in the world to see, so essentially it's a free for all, and i can handle that. I am also aware that you (and others who might know me personally) read my blog, so anything i put on here is stuff i won't mind anyone reading. The things that are important to me and close to my heart will never make it to this blog and i'm okay with that.

I still don't understand you and i have accepted that i never will. I have mourned the loss of our friendship cos at a certain time of my life, u were the closest person to me but i guess reading my blog and drawing the wrong conclusions from it meant more to you than our friendship. At that time, 98% of what i wrote on my blog, you already knew first hand from me, but it wasn't enough. Were you reading, hoping that i will write something bad about you? Did you just want to catch me in a lie? What happened to trusting your friends? It would have been okay if you had admitted when i asked, but you denied it.

 I am over it, really. I guess i don't mind you reading it like i used to, but it just irks me sometimes when i see that you've been here and our friendship no longer exists because of it. Well, i put it up so anyone can read, so enjoy.

Do you consider yourself boy-crazy? I mean, it makes for good gist, but how is it affecting you? If you could be with any guy (celeb) who would it be? oya talk o

lol...i actually like this question. No, i definitely don't consider myself boy crazy cos i can go long periods without dealing with any guy. In all honesty, i think the guys are Sting crazy. I've always had more than my fair share of attention from guys considering how introverted i actually am. There's always some dude or dudes hanging around wanting to be with me and i admit i like the attention.
With regards to how it is affecting me, this year has been crazy for me, and i have made some hasty decisions in a bid to find a band aid for my unhappiness. I don't know the impression you guys get from my blog, but i've only really dealt seriously with two guys this year and the second guy was very short lived.
I'm not into celebrities to be honest. I think Majid the Ghanaian actor is cute.

Ask me anything