My life is Wonderful

Today will be the first time i have left my apartment since Friday and that's only because i have a mandatory class to attend and an appt with someone in school. This is a usual occurrence for me. Thank God i'm not an extroverted person who has a need to see or be around people. I would probably go mad or get depressed, as 25% percent of med students are. I'm not surprised about that stat at all. I see how one can become depressed dealing with this madness. Med school can be pretty isolative.

Not saying that there are no extroverted people in med school cos there are. A lot! Those are the ones who feel the need for a change of scenery, so they go to coffee shops, to school or other libraries, barnes and nobles or wherever they feel the need to go to. I don't have that need. My apartment is the best place for me to study. The temp is set to my comfort level, I'm in sweatpants and t-shirts, i can roll in and roll out of my couch for power naps at will, it's perfect for my purposes.

When i first started med school, i was ALWAYS in some nerd room in school. I had a blanket, space heater, food for the whole day, the only thing that was missing was for me to put up curtains and a rug, i never stayed in my apartment. I even slept in school one time, it was a mess. Funny how that was my most unproductive time in med school till date. I'm still learning the best way to navigate this mine-field called med school. I so do not have it down at all. It will be a modern day miracle if i graduate :) Okay, that's an exaggeration but you get my point. There's no fool-proof method on how to do well or study, it's a constant trial and error process. It's stressful and overwhelming most times. Sometimes, it's more endurance than ability (actually most times).....let's see who can cram 48hrs in 24hrs cos there's really not enough hours in the day for the amount of stuff they expect you to learn.

I tire. It's 4.30am. I'm not half done with the agenda i had for tonight, but i give up. I'm going to bed.