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3 weeks of orientation is finally over!

I got to know my co-residents

(it was by force by fire)

We went canoeing, 

spent two days and two nights in a different city

drove down to the mothership for a procedures workshop

suffered through the horrific EMR training at one hospital together

hung out and watched the basketball finals

went to the picnic, grad dinner and dinner with the chiefs together

dubbed ourselves the coolest residents amongst the "other" residents 

in affiliated programs

Gave our group a nickname

Had pity parties at various times over the never ending orientation

Teased each other both in person and in group texts

It's amazing what 3 weeks of forced daily all day contact

 would do to a group of people

We actually like each other.

Thank God for that!

Tomorrow i will be thrown to the wolves.

 I have gone from feeling dread 

to being excited.

Like,

WOW!!!

I dreamt it

Worked my ass off

fought 

and 

I made it!

Against all odds

through blood, sweat, copious tears

and never ending lamentations

I made it!

I freaking made it.

Jesus Halleluyah Christ! 

Amazeballs

"She believed she could, so she did!" - R.S Grey

There's a testimony in there guys

but this jollof rice i'm eating

won't free me to blog properly

One hand typing is not it.

But, 

I'm thankful!

Even when i was miserable and hated what i was doing

what i was passing through

feeling like i made a mistake

hating medicine

In my rare quiet moments 

when i got a second to breath

I was always thankful

Because 

 in my darkest hours

when i couldn't see beyond my nose

talkless of seeing any light at the end of the tunnel

There was always this distant, faded memory

of the girl who dreamt of 

becoming a doctor

So she could change lives and put smiles on faces

"She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her away, she adjusted her sails" - Elizabeth Edwards

Tomorrow

at 6am

I will walk into the hospital

The same person I was yesterday

but this time as

Sting, MD

reporting for duty

Fuck what you heard! 

"She's her mother's daughter, strong African woman"

-Me, myself and Sting

Maama I made it!

I am so proud of my mother.

She's the ultimate boss. 

All that i am and all that i will ever be

i owe to her.

She's responsible for the foundation and 

the core of my soul 

I love and honor her! 

"After a while I looked in the mirror and realized.... wow after all those hurts, scars, and bruises after all of those trials, I really made it through. 

I did it.

I survived that which was supposed to kill me.

So i straightened my crown

and walked away 

like a boss"

-Author Unknown 

To all those who have read this blog and supported me, whether silently,  or through comments and emails, my soul thanks you. Thank you. Wish me luck as i step from one journey unto the next. 

P.S. Please be prepared for me to complain about intern year just as much as i complained about med school. While everything has changed, nothing has changed.